Personal Practice Journal

My practice has had things added and taken away from it over the last few months due to what I need.  I don't create my own practice.  As we all know, like likes like.  And if that is the case, I won't do what I need, rather what I feel comfortable and cozy doing. My practice today was hard.  Not like physically difficult or anything, but my breathwork was off.  I struggled with my PAE and I couldn't find a breathing flow (even found myself holding my breath after inhales...anxiety goes up my friends!).  And as I write this, I realize I totally forgot to oil.  I did do 27 rounds of Sat Nam.  And here, after about 14 rounds I finally found it.  I found my breath and I was able to just be.  It took the whole practice.  My mind was scattered with "all the things I have to do" and it was so uncomfortable to just be doing yoga with everything else that is deemed necessary in life, not even by me...but by others.  I finished my Sat...

These journals may only be one sentence.  Or they could be 50 pages.  I'm not sure what state of mind I will be in when I complete my practice.  I know I typically am at peace, but I am not sure how my mind and body will release all the things.  And in all truth, there are times when I can't even process what I am feeling or experiencing for a couple days.  Sometimes, it will take weeks for me to realize what exactly "that" was before I could even try and put it into words. I'm placing my journal here on the world wide web because why not.  In reality, there likely won't be many that find it or read it.  I also believe that journals are really important as a part of someone's journey into self-discovery.  And it is important to heal and to answer questions.  I don't have a lot to hide and I am trying to minimize all that I have in my personal collection of paperwork and books.  This, fortunately, can always be found and will not be rui...